Busy

This is what my life has been. I cannot believe it's been so long since I last updated the blog. Things have been their usual roller coaster of emotions, but the only constant things are the hustle and bustle and my Buggy. I cannot believe how on the go we are now. I've got to juggle; school, work, Buggy, homework, housework, and I'm sure I'm forgetting something.

I haven't really had much time to think lately, but when I did have that time tonight I didn't want it. I was so sad for some reason. I just could not keep my thoughts positive like I usually do. I wanted something, but didn't get it. That is fine I understand things happen. Yet when I had some time to sit and think, all of my thoughts went to unpleasant things. This has not happened to me in awhile, I was finally getting over the situation and loving my life as it is. There are a million reasons why I felt so sad and depressed but I honestly think it was a combination of lack of sleep, missing my Buggy, and missing something else.

There are times when I know that I can do this. I am strong and resilient, I'm a fighter. Nothing will stand in the way of my success. Though I do still want to be with someone, to find "the one," I just don't know. How am I supposed to know that he's true? Is it something I'll just know? I cannot handle history repeating itself when it comes to this. Don't get me wrong though, I'm not going to let Buggy's dad win, I WILL love again. I will love with all of myself just like I did with her dad. The only thing different is the next guy is going to love me back. I'm not saying that her daddy didn't love me, what I'm saying is the next guy will love me as much, or maybe even more, than I love him.

It's nice to think about the good things, it helps me make it through the day. For now all I know is that I've got my baby Buggy and there is nothing that will keep us apart. Together we put one foot in front of the other and keep moving forward...